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A good friend of mine died in a car accident two days ago and I just found out. His name was Eddie and all he knew was laughs and good times. He loved to live his life, and he did. What a day for this to happen to us. How are we supposed to prepare for the death of a friend? How is anyone supposed to? Words are just words describing this horrible feeling sitting and burning in the middle of my chest. These tears flow with a purpose no one wants to experience.

There are way too many of us dying so young. To think that Eddie will never walk through his front door to greet his mother and family. He'll never make us laugh ever again. He'll never know what it's like to feel 40 years old at 30, or even see what his children might of looked like. His branch on the tree ended abruptly, and his soul will live on to remember us. The reminisce he left here on Earth will be remembered forever.

All I ask is that everyone be responsible and wear your seat belts. No one ever takes that simple, little advice seriously. Not until someone close dies from it, or they themselves (God forbid) lose their life over it. I've already had 3 good, close friends die of the same reason, and I'm completely sick of it. It doesn't matter if I know you or not, there's nothing in the world that would make me want that experience for you. It's such a simple gesture to execute by reaching and pulling the belt over your shoulders. So, please. You really only live once. Make it last instead of throwing it away. Wear your seat belts, don't drink and drive, and always be responsible of your lives. You'll find that at your darkest moment that sometimes the only person who can save your life is yourself. That is all.

It's a dark and gloomy day outside in Florida. The Earth is crying for my friend.

What do you know? We didn't die. But, I guess you already knew that, didn't you? What a great start to this year. Granted, I'm not enjoying beautiful, frosty weather as most of the people I watch here on deviant are (how envious I am of you). But, instead its the perfect weather in Florida: nothing above a breeze and some humid sunshine; not too hot for the pool, but cool enough for shorts and some converses. You think I would shoot pictures like mad before this perfect weather drifts away like everything good here, but alas my lens is undergoing repairs. The focusing ring detached already and I've only had it for a year. I take care of it I swear! I cleaned it and made sure to never bump it anywhere. I think with all the trips I've taken it on and been through, it just kinda gave in.

No worries, I should get it back in a few days. Canon's fairly good with rush repairs. I cannot wait because I'll finally start some much needed conceptual work. For the people who haven't been following me very long, I've specialized in Portraiture because I constantly strive to make my product better. For 4 years now, I've only worked on portraits. I guess you can say I'm really hard on myself? I won't get into the details because then we'll be here all day. But, I've finally reached a point where I'm, well, /content/ with what I produce. A friend of mine suggested two things of which were a 365 project and conceptual work added to my port. Of course, I'm going to do both, but the conceptual part of it is what really excited me.

This entire time I've only created primitive products of the concepts I've thought of, and it was only recently where I've acquired a higher understanding for that type of photography. It may seem easy, but without school and the proper training, it takes a bit to fully understand things as such. And for someone like me who's dying to get back to school but doesn't have a dime to her name but her art, it leaves one eager to learn further than their first year.

Enough chit chat; I've never been the one to ramble on, but I guess when you're this excited to get equipment back you can't help but to share a glimpse of your planning. I'm looking down now and all I can see is my fluffy, 6-month-old kitten looking like a vampire because her front chompers are peaking out of her mouth. Wish me luck and thank you for stopping by!

SO, I have a lot to tell you guys. I know I haven't been on here for a while, but I'm back!! I'll try to get on more, I'll be having a lot more stuff to show you guys.

Alright, there are really good news and really bad news.

Bad news goes first, naturally. I sold my camera on Ebay, long story short, the guy was a fraud. He sent me messages to my email that looked like they were from Ebay and Paypal. But, I mean, IDENTICAL to the ones the company sent me. So, it was kind of fishy they're not only saying that they already paid, but they paid more than I was selling it for. On top of that, the person wanted me to send it to some kid in Nigeria. I contact Ebay, cause I don't see any of the information they're sending me on my account online, and they tell me that everything is fine. It just takes a bit to load that information. How can that be? You send me e-mails first? But, I payed no mind to it and sent my package out and it wasn't until two days passed that I still didn't see the payment come through. I call Ebay again, and that's when they decide to ask me for the transaction id. So, I will never see my Canon EOS Rebel T1i ever again. It was a good 3 years, lad. I'll miss ya.

Good news!! I'm still fighting Ebay for my money back, but I'm also going to be able to buy myself my much awaited Canon EOS 5D Mk II!! I'm also getting a 580EX II with a O-Ring Flash Adapter for it, a 18-50mm f/2.8 lens, underwater casing and a professional shutter release remote. I'm so excited!! I already have media groups requesting me, I have bands booking small gigs, and I might even get to be road bound this Fall. Tour? Who knows?!?!! Please, spread the word and share my work with your friends! I might even be in your hometown sometime.

Please keep your fingers crossed for me in the attempt to let my career take flight! I'll talk to you all soon.

Ciao~

So, I sold my Canon EOS Rebel T1i today! I've had it for 3 years now, and it's served me well. Now, it's going to some kid in Nigeria, and I hope it's happily used and taken care of there. But, as for me, I'm upgrading to a T2i, but hopefully I can get my hands on a used 5d Mrk II (my DREAM camera).

A very short journal indeed, but I'm off to take my last portraits with my old friend T1i. My first professional camera, I will miss you. I know your groves and crevices like no one else. Good luck in Nigeria. I hope you capture beautiful images I will never know of.

A tearful goodbye it will be, a tearful surprise I'll receive.

I have been away for quite some time now and I apologize!! I've been working my butt off, and it is paying off!! I have two weddings this month and an anniversary to photograph!! Hooray for jobs!!

Today~ As a matter of fact.
I am to receive the following today:
- 1 Nikkor 35mm f/1.8 lens
- 1 battery grip
- 1 Pro lens adapter
- 2 batteries
- 1 Battery Charger (cause my boyfriend lost my other one -.- )
- 1 Happy Ida!!!

I am also recently inspired to write a story I've been working on since I was little since I don't have the time to draw it all out!

Wish me luck! You'll be seeing me more now that I'm finally getting somewhere! Thank you for all your support and patience!
Good day~